The loss of Joey is so profound and deep and heartwrenching, that it is almost unbearable at times. It helps so much that others know that and care. We don't know how we are ever going to resume "normal" lives again. We just long for his presence and yearn for one more day with him. Life feels empty without him. Whenever he walked into a room he brought happiness, humor, and love with him and gave it out generously. He was full of excitement for life and lived so much in the moment. He was engaged and involved and aware of each one of us and what we were feeling and doing. He was just such a rich and giving person and we feel so much poorer without him.
Being back here of course starts a new wave of grief, remembering everything we shared with Joey here. He loved Maui so much, and he loved our condo here looking out on the ocean. I have so many sweet memories of mornings here on the lanai, him drinking coffee and drinking in the beauty of the ocean. He couldn't stop talking about it. I know he was looking forward to inheriting the place someday! Our lives will reorganize, but they will never be the same again. I just pray that God will comfort us and that Joey is having an incredible experience exploring heaven right now....seeing things we can only imagine and speechless from the beauty around him.